Edge Game

116 - Rules of Engagement Party

1. Think about what you will be like over the next 10 years. Tell us about how you are similar and how you differ from your future self. Describe your future self as vividly as you can.
2. Imagine a typical day, five years in the future. Think about what it may be like, things you may do, places you may go, and people you may meet. How might you might feel about your day's experience? Describe your future day as vividly as you can. Include any specific details that come to mind.
3. Tell us about the career and/or your job you may have 10 years. How does that compare with what you hope and/or fear your career may be?
4. Think about your friendships and familial relationships over the next 10 years. How do you expect to feel in your future relationships? What about safe, supported, valued? What about afraid and/or like a burden? Do you feel your future friends and family will respect and be accepting of you? Why? What role will you play in these relationships? Describe your future relationships as vividly as you can. Tell us why you think your relationships will look this way.
5. Is there a community or communities (or group/organization of people) you see yourself being part of in the coming years? Tell us about the role or roles you may play. Will you feel like you belong to this group? What about you will add value to the group? Please describe this in as much detail as you can.
6. Think about what your personality will be like several years in the future. Tell us what you like and dislike about your future personality. Describe each trait clearly and explain why you like and/or dislike those traits in particular.
7. Think about some things you will do over the next 10 years. Think about your future accomplishments and/or hobbies. Tell us what you like and dislike about your future actions. Describe each clearly and explain why you like and dislike those actions in particular.
8. Think about what your beliefs and values will be like over the next 10 years. Tell us about how your current beliefs and values are similar and how they differ from your future self.
9. In general, how do you feel about your future self? Do you like who you expect yourself to be in the future? Why? How will you feel about yourself several years in the future from now? Please describe this in depth and explain why you think you will feel that way
10.How do you see your life overall 10 years in the future? What are your expectations and/or hopes for the future? Can you describe your future life?
11. What do you want to achieve in the next 10 years? Why? What are your major goals for the next 10 years of your life? Please describe them in detail and explain why you selected these.
12. Describe your ideal life in 10 years. Please explain this in depth and with details.
13. What do you think will be the biggest change or event in your life over the next 10 years?
14. Describe the life you fear you may have over the next 10 years. Please explain this in depth and with details
15. What do you think will be the biggest challenges to achieving your life goals over the next 10 years? Please describe them in detail and explain why these are your biggest challenges.

115 - Vocaroo

Question 1 Take a moment to think about recent experiences in your life. Then consider two of these experiences, one that shows your strengths and one that reveals your challenges. Take your time to think about these experiences. For each situation, describe what happened, your reaction, and what you discovered about yourself.
Question 2 Take a moment to think about how well you understand your own reactions and feelings. Describe a recent situation where your response either made perfect sense to you or confused you. Did this experience teach you about yourself?
Question 3 Take a moment to reflect on how your past experiences connect to who you are now. Think about challenges you've faced - what have these experiences taught you about yourself, others, or life? What patterns do you notice in how you've grown or changed? Choose specific examples that show how your past experiences connect to your present life and what you've learned from them.
Question 4 Take a moment to explore how you understand the different parts of yourself. Think about aspects of yourself that seem to fit together well, and parts that might conflict or feel contradictory. For each, give specific examples of how these parts show up in your life. How do you make sense of these different aspects of yourself? What helps you understand yourself better?
Question 5 Take a moment to think about your relationships. Choose two specific relationships and describe what they're like. How connected do you feel in these relationships? What makes you feel most connected to these people, and what makes connection challenging? How have these relationships changed over time? Remember to explain your thoughts in detail.
Question 6 Think about how people respond to your feelings, joy or pain. Do people in your life show they care? When they do or don't, how does this affect you? Think about times when care felt deeply real to you, and times when it felt superficial. For each example, describe the situation in detail - what happened, what made it feel genuine or not, how it affected you. What have you learned about what makes care feel real? How does experiencing genuine care affect your life?
Question 7 To what degree do you feel seen, valued and respected for who you are? If you can, describe experiences where you've felt any or all of those. When was this? Who was it with? What was the full experience like for you? Did you feel the same way about them? If you rarely experience this, what do you think might be the underlying reasons?
Question 8 Take a moment to reflect on how you feel about yourself right now. Overall, do you like who you are? Choose one or two specific situations from recent weeks that relate to these feelings. For each situation, describe what happened and how it affected your view of yourself. Try to explain both what you feel about yourself and why you feel this way.
Question 9 Spend a minute thinking about how you became who you are today. What aspects of yourself make you feel proud or satisfied? What do you want to change about yourself? Give specific examples for how they came up recently.
Question 10 How much control do you feel you have over your life and your story? Describe situations where you've felt in control of your story versus times when you haven't. What specific qualities, factors or skills help you feel more or less empowered?
Question 11 To what degree do you trust yourself? When do you find it easy or difficult to trust your own judgment? Give examples. Remember to explain your thoughts in detail
Question 12 It can be very challenging to forgive yourself for errors you have made. Think about if and when you are able to forgive yourself and make peace with past actions and experiences. Describe specific situations where you’ve faced the challenge of forgiving yourself. Were you successful? What helped or got in the way of self-forgiveness?
Question 13 Take a moment to think about meaning in your life. First, share what, if anything, gives your overall life a sense of meaning or purpose. Describe specific experiences that have shaped this view. Then, consider your daily life - what specific activities, relationships, or beliefs add value to your everyday experience? For each example, describe how it matters to you. If finding meaning is challenging, either overall or day-to-day, describe what makes it difficult.
Question 14 Take a moment to reflect on what makes life feel truly meaningful versus just existing. Think about specific times when you’ve felt most alive or when life felt most real and significant. Describe these experiences in detail - what was happening, what made them matter, how did they affect you? Then consider times when life felt more like just existing. What creates these different experiences for you? What helps you move from just existing to feeling more alive?
Question 15 These can be difficult things to think about. Take a moment to reflect on what your life means to you. Overall, do you feel that you are choosing to live or that you are forced to live? Would you want to live if there were no negative consequences for not living? Please explain fully.

114 - Post Malone Oreo ASMR Mukbang Review

Gabe discusses his experience with Post Malone's exclusive Oreo, which he found unimpressive. He reflects on a two-month hiatus from podcasting, expressing hope for listeners' well-being. Gabe shares his foray into online sports gambling, detailing the addictive nature and the variety of bets available. He recounts a palm reading experience in New Orleans and his recent interest in sports betting. Gabe also discusses his sleep apnea diagnosis, the challenges of obtaining a CPAP machine, and his work with Character AI, focusing on identifying harmful content. He concludes with personal reflections on his mother's health and his decision to join the military.
 
Speaker 1 recounts purchasing a CPAP device for $150, only to find it infested with cockroaches. After cleaning and repairing it, they found it effective for sleep apnea, especially with a nose strip and mouth tape. They also discuss a movie they found underwhelming, criticizing its lack of originality and over-reliance on gimmicks. Additionally, Speaker 1 shares their work experience with Character AI, a chatbot website where users create personalized characters, and their role in moderating content related to suicide and eating disorders. They express discomfort with the site's existence and its impact on society.
 
The speaker expresses dissatisfaction with a companion series, criticizing its lack of innovation and interesting twists. They discuss using ChatGPT for therapeutic purposes and the challenges of nursing jobs in Louisiana. The speaker is considering enlisting in the military due to financial stability and a desire for change. They also address their mother's ongoing health issues, suspected to be psychosomatic, and her reluctance to seek help. The speaker feels burdened by their mother's emotional needs and struggles with their own emotional response, including anger and guilt. They plan to make significant life changes in the coming months.

113 - Call of Duty Mardi Gras 6

Guilt trips triggered by tickling and choking, reactivations, MEPS, Call of Duty Enlistment lounge, Dr. Marc pittman, Rush Limbaugh, Clintons, Ben carson, Costco membership, Near death chicken bake experience, Superbowl opening day, Watching old home movies, seeing your parents pain, watching your mom vlog, Sam Hyde show, Dominican Republic with filipinos, All-inclusive resorts, A return to antinatalism, from a Buddhist Taoist perspective, Using my ancestrydna results to prove that I'm 20% nazi, mardi gras, new orleans
Having severe moments of paranoia that I am going crazy or that I've been crazy and locked up in the hospital and that everyone in my life is a psych nurse or a doctor. Thinking about phuong. Someone who had a lot of her shit together for the first 40 years of her life and just suddenly couldn't function anymore. That her brain suddenly decided it wasn't worth running from death anymore. Like I keep thinking I'm dying and all of this is some delusion in my head, keeping me peaceful and content. the ultimate cope

112 - Bourbon Street New Years

christmas eve was nice, christmas day was nice, new years eve was nice 

111 - Chismas

it's chismas

110 - Japan vs New Jersey (feat. Gypsy-Rose "Sadie" Blanchard)

@sadie_rom 
my tailbone hurted
japan, online, mom, psychosis, risperidone, risperdal, behavioral health, psychiatry, gay district, shinjuku, gay little monkey boy at apple store, suicide, trains, second life, MyCoke, Coke Studios, Coke Music, gaia online, worlds.com, dnsl, bang energy, john wilson

109 - Post Hinchcliffe World (feat. Daddy Yankee)

Japan is so cool that I've decided to enlist 
I got a testicle massage and it was amazing (not sexual)
There's a type of massage called "Japkasai" which is a THERAPEUTIC massage where a woman massages your groin, inner thighs, "taint", and of course, testicles. It was 14,000 yen for a 60 minute testicle massage. Here's the process.
Arrive, take shower, 20 minutes spent massaging groin, taint, inner thighs, then 40 minutes of pinching and rubbing and massaging testicles and pushing energy up the shaft. To be clear again, this is NOT sexual, although she sometimes does rub your penis in order to move the energy from the testicles up the shaft.
The first half is extremely painful. You know how there are knots in your legs, backs, etc when you haven't gotten a proper massage in a while? Well imagine your groin, which has probably never gotten a deep tissue massage, ever. There were actually knots in my groin area that she broke up with powerful rubbing and it almost made me cry out in pain. She broke through the knots and then moved to the ball sack.
The balls massage is actually somewhat pleasurable. She's basically just massaging and kneading your balls and getting the blood to flow for 40 minutes, it doesn't really hurt that much.
The results were astounding. After I got home and relaxed a bit, I checked my balls and noticed that they had increased in size by nearly 50%. They weren't in pain or swollen, I think it's just blood flow that has been improved.
Also, I woke up with a RAGING erection this morning, felt like I was 15 again (I'm 32). I highly recommend this vitalizing therapy to people. The funniest part is that I told my girlfriend (who still lives in America but is planning to join me soon) that I was thinking about getting a ball massage and she thought it was hilarious. When I told her I actually got one, she was kind of shocked that I actually got it but laughed when I told her about the experience. Then at night, she randomly called me and said she was ultra pissed that I allowed another woman to touch me and see me naked... despite me telling her over and over again that the woman is sixty years old and that this is not a sexual massage. Women, lol.
In Japan 🇯🇵 , heart surgeon ❤️👨‍⚕️ . Number one 😭☝️ . Steady hand😳✋️. One day, Yakuza boss 🙇🏻need 🆕 heart💘. I do operation🔪⚔️. But, mistake😱! Yakuza boss die😵😪! Yakuza very mad👿. I hide🙈 in fishing boat🐟🚣🏻‍♀️, come to America🎇🎊🇺🇸. No english🤐, no food😩, no money📉🚫💲. Darryl 👨🏿give me job🙌👨🏻‍💼. Now I have house🏡, American car 🚗 , and new woman 🆕👱🏻‍♀️. Darryl 👨🏿save life⛑. My big secret🙊: I kill ☠️yakuza boss on purpose😈. I good 👍surgeon. The best👌💯!

108 - Post Diddy World (feat. Joker Diddy)

Pre Japan 10-14-2024 
POV falling in love thanks to NYT ASMR 36 Questions to Fall in Love based on some pop psychology mumbo jumbo himbo bimbo vending machine panties pumpkin spice cold brew creamed tractor supply company word salad buzzwords algorithm hashtag description metadata

107 - Evolution of Diary (feat. Judson Laipply)

boohoo trust issues boohoo she read my journal wahhhhh